Today I am officially old enough to serve an LDS mission.
I've never really had a deep desire to me a missionary and I'm pretty sure I would be horrible at it, but I have always wanted to serve a humanitarian mission. I've always wanted to go to Africa with UNICEF or something like that.
I got a second job. Now I work about ten hours a day. I took the job not for the money (although it is a good side benefit) but to keep myself busy. It's not working. Apparently I still have too much free time.
I keep thinking that I'm stuck here. Time is ticking away and I can't do anything about it. I'm useless and I can't change. I have to do something. Maybe I will go to Africa, maybe I will put in my papers for a procelyting mission. At least I'd be doing something. At least I'd be useful.