Back in the pit of depression.
Why am I doing this, again? Not the no yelling thing, the whole kids thing. I used to love being a mother. I thought it was challenging , but fun. I thought it was difficult, but worth it. I can't remember the last time I felt that way. Now it's just hard.
yep. I feel that way basically all the time and have for the last 9 years. I stopped talking to Nate about it. Parenting sucks.
ReplyDeleteI think you might be trying to do too many things at once...Allow yourself the occasional sugar, hire a babysitter and go on a date with Drek, just the two of you. It doesn't sound like you are allowing yourself a lot of relaxation at the moment.
ReplyDeleteOr keep going and recognize you might be in a particularly rough valley?
I don't know. I don't have the experience you have. Have a digital hug from me.
In November, when I was off of sugar, I had so much patience with my kids! It seemed a lot easier to go days without yelling at them. I had energy and a clear mind. I feel like the only way to make is possible for me to meet my goal of not yelling for a year is if I'm off sugar. I could have detoxed from sugar AND THEN started my year of no yelling, but I wanted to start my challenge as soon as possible. The sooner you start, the sooner you succeed. Really, the smartest thing would have been to not eat sugar in December.
DeleteTrue enough, but you also weren't trying to force patience, right? Now you have all this added baggage each time you mess up the patience thing because you have higher expectations. I feel like the stress can add up pretty fast, but I could be wrong.
DeleteIn any case, I really hope this works out. You are a better person than I at the moment (there is no way I could do a sugar free, shouting free year)